new username new me

I decided to change my username, as it did not match my identity. I don't even know what a falcon is, but everyone knows what a beautiful majestic eagle is. beautiful and majestic, just like me. And 60 is a weird number, 69 is a much better number. looks like two people dancing

#My most horrfyingly embarassing and by far toxic trait

I love this website because really only so few of my friends visit it I could just use it to vent to the world. like a little personal diary.

I have this horrible toxic trait of like, sometimes looking up people in my past life to see how their shitty decisions or shitty behavior has led to their lives turning out. Are they as miserable as I imagine they are? sometimes I watch them and through their facial expressions or little clues on their social media and make up little stories about how they're really doing

But I realize this is a toxic trait that I NEED to stop. Doing shit like this will not make my life better, it'll only hold me behind. I need to ignore those people, like they're from my past life. They're dead. Who cares. Work on your own life and trying to drive yourself forward. Why am I obsessed with the dead?

Someone, send me your therapist please. But yeah, definitely need to work on that...where do I start?

Let it go by Elsa the Icequeen

A few days ago my boss told me „to let go“. Like don’t be too harsh to myself and others. Especially the children at my workplace. I think he meant something like don’t feel responsible for everyone and everything. But how can I do this if I have this feeling in my gut that I can do better than a lot of other colleagues. It’s like finding a thin line between responsibility and let five be straight (weird to translate German sayings into English). I’m really trying my best and I know I‘m really good at my job, but it leaves me exhausted at hell. So as part of a homework for myself I try to let it go. Leave the opportunity for others to do shit I always do.

This week, on Foodie Beauty; more drama, Peetz spills the tea on Chantal, and she gets another youtuber into hot water (Takat)

There's some drama brewing in gorl world this week, as Chantal is exposed for some of her lies.

First up, Peetz goes on live and reveals that Chantal is on a tourist visa, exposing a big lie that she is a resident in Kuwait. She is married so shouldn't she be on a residency visa? or maybe she is in the process of applying for it and hasn't quite gotten it yet. Either way, she was caught in a lie as she was telling people that she had residency in Kuwait, which has been exposed as not true. I think if she really is married to Salah (a topic which has been hotly debated in gorl world), she should've just been honest about waiting for her residency permit. But perhaps this is revealing a bigger lie about her; which is that she maybe in a misyar marriage, or not even really married to him at all. Only Chantal knows the truth to that.

Second:

has anyone noticed she has changed her name from foodie beauty to everyday mariam? this may be in response to the soon to be released documentary by Mr. Snowflake about her. His documentaries are known to be quite thorough, and Chantal, having claimed to be a "changed woman" may not be keen on having some of these things brought out about her in the documentary. Since the Kuwait arc began, she has been trying to seem much more pious, a "changed woman" as she puts it, and seems to be seeking a more Muslim audien...

Why France sucks - a serious post/talk about a topic everyone else refuses to speak about

Intro

yeah, I get it. Hating a country is pretty controversial nowadays, especially in the woke era. And to be clear, I think racial injustice/gender inequality are totally valid things to speak about (and in fact will be the two things I discuss here), but I fear we have gone into the opposite direction: basically now we can't criticize anything. It appears, at least to me, nuanced is dead, and you're either far right or far left. I think rather, we should be able to criticize things otherwise you come out with people who go way the opposite of the spectrum (dudes like Andrew Tate).

Why am I qualified to talk about this? I lived in France for 3 years, so yeah, I have some experience. I lived in both Paris and the south in Nice, and I promise you this is not just a "Paris" problem. I will post some links to other articles too, to make my point.

Racism

if you're not white or black (and a man), stay the fuck out of France, because you will have a really bad time. Hell even if you are white and black, make sure you don't get caught in the "wrong" hood. I have heard from many colleagues about the harassment they can receive if you enter the wrong neighborhood, with many people usually shouting at you but also there is a real risk of getting jumped.

When I lived in France, I literally could not leave my house for a single day without having racist remarks shouted at me. Not. A....

Sanity Media is a place to post your increasingly unhinged thoughts

has anyone noticed that a lot of these posts are trending toward the unhinge? Has anyone noticed that many of the media we consume now seems to trend towards the unhinged?

Sanity Media began this trend early on! We are the pioneers of unhinged. If you are interested in posting unhinged media, Sanity Media is the place to do it

A user acquisition conundrum

One of the fastest ways I can attract the first users to Sanity and start getting feedback is by posting about it and engaging on Facebook and Twitter. The thing is, I find them too addictive and full of dark patterns, which is why started Sanity in the first place. I always tell myself I’ll only use them for a specific purpose, or for 15 minutes a day, or only occasionally, and then I gradually get sucked into using them all the time. I start out by visiting once every few days, I check for new posts from a few people I follow, read some AI news, visit groups etc. With time, I find myself using them more and more until several weeks later, I check them throughout the day. This is more of a problem for me with Twitter but, to a lesser extent, also applies to Facebook.

So the question is - how to I get the word out about Sanity without using the addictive social media networks it’s meant to be the alternative to?

I'm focusing on writing content and optimizing SEO for now but it's a slow process. Any tips?

Learning to be alone or: Getting lonely?

Our generation is wild. So many requirements from society. Be chatty, go out, meet friends, enjoy your hobbies. Everything is about being present and active. Even social media. Don‘t get me wrong. I enjoy all of these things. But most of the time, I just want to be alone. In my own little bubble, all by myself. Like charging my social battery to do all of this above. Even to be capable of doing these things. Exhausted from everything. From life outside, staying in my safe place. But how can it be so ambivalent? The need of going out, but also just would like to stay in. Communicating with no one. Some say it’s a task or something you have to learn, to be alone. For me it’s the easiest thing ever. But deep down there is a fear in me. Being alone now is my choice, but what if someday it isn’t a choice anymore and it turns into loneliness. So sealed off, no one gets to you. Physically and mentally.

Is foodie beauty's downfall imminent?

there have been recent reports that foodie beauty's downfall is imminent. Her videos lately have been getting less and less views. And let's be honest, she's just...kind of boring now. Recently she even uploaded two videos of...a grocery haul?

The beginning

Foodie beauty's peak was during what people refer to the "Nader" saga. This was a time when she was dating a...rather questionable but unquestionably abusive and overall just not a bad guy. There was a lot of live drama between the two of them, basically the typical toxic, on and off relationship (with some substances involved) which people enjoyed watching. Mostly because we could see in real time this lady making poor decisions over and over again. It was mind boggling and it was hard to turn your eyes away. Chantal received little sympathy online because of how controversial she was and she was not liked online because of many of the things she had said. Chantal just came off as a mean person at the end of the day.

So what happened?

Chantal broke the golden rules of youtube.

1. don't be boring
2. don't be unlikeable/mean
3. don't fuck with cats

by breaking those 3 rules, you basically ensure your downfall on that platform. People generally don't want to support unlikeable characters. That's a given, people love cats, and people go on youtube at the very least to be entertained. You might be able to risk breaking some of these rules, but breaking ALL of them (and arguably, o...

The slow descent into postdoctoral madness

If you wont read any more posts or comments from me, youll realize that my descent into madness was a swift one. Im a last years phd student (in fact 6 months to go and 3 more months hopefully to write) in biology who is grasping to his last bit of sanity at the moment all the while sailing through the troubled waters commonly referred to as the "terrible last year". With work piling up from the last 2,5 years, multiple projects requiring attention and people expecting me to perform well, there is also a constant dread for my future career so the pressure is coming from the past, present and the future ready to gang up on you any time of the day. A general phd in life sciences (and i dont count medicine because its not a real science, sorry early falcon) includes 3-5 years of laboratory labor, depending where you live and how fucked or blessed you are with your supervisor. After the terrible last year, you are kicked out to write your thesis and depending where you life you can be lucky if youre still hired by then or if they lay you off to write your thesis on welfare (social programs yeeaahh am i right ?) By then you are ready to defend your thesis and earn your well deserved title, unless you have decided to quit at any of those moments, which i have seen people do from first year right up to only having to write everything together. Afriend of mine recommended me to start writing a journal book but im terrible with such things...