#My most horrfyingly embarassing and by far toxic trait
I love this website because really only so few of my friends visit it I could just use it to vent to the world. like a little personal diary.
I have this horrible toxic trait of like, sometimes looking up people in my past life to see how their shitty decisions or shitty behavior has led to their lives turning out. Are they as miserable as I imagine they are? sometimes I watch them and through their facial expressions or little clues on their social media and make up little stories about how they're really doing
But I realize this is a toxic trait that I NEED to stop. Doing shit like this will not make my life better, it'll only hold me behind. I need to ignore those people, like they're from my past life. They're dead. Who cares. Work on your own life and trying to drive yourself forward. Why am I obsessed with the dead?
Someone, send me your therapist please. But yeah, definitely need to work on that...where do I start?